You were cremated today. Everyone cried and wept while we were performing the rituals before they brought your body away.

YuQi jie jie was crying inconsolably, so I went over to comfort her. She was crying so hard, she made me cry too.

I couldn't help crying again when we followed behind the van containing your body. Lee ling jie jie was sobbing uncontrollably and begging you not to go, and everyone else was trying to console her while they were crying themselves. When we were about to reach the main road, the uncles told us we had to go back to the buses. I didn't want to leave you, kor, but they forced me away. I sat at the front seat of the van and carried your urn.

At the crematorium, we put flowers atop of your coffin. They were to signify our best wishes and to tell you that we'll be missing you always. Then we were hustled into a room overlooking a large platform below.

When your coffin appeared, everyone started hollering your name. I yelled as loud as I could, did you hear me? When the machine lowered the coffin on another machine, everyone started panicking and screaming. I screamed too, I didn't want them to hurt your body, but a cousin of yours told me that it was best to let you go.

I screamed all the way when the machine advanced towards the burner. I hollered until my voice grew hoarse, but I wasn't heard much over the screams of the others surrounding me. When your coffin was pushed into the burner and the doors were closed, I blacked out.

My ah yang kor kor's body is being burned.

You're not coming back forever.

I still miss you kor.